“We abolish the stage and the auditorium and replace them with a single site, without partition or barrier of any kind, which will become the theatre of action. A direct communication will be re-estabilshed between the spectator and the spectacle, between the actor and the spectator, from the fact that the spectator, placed in the middle of the action, is engulfed and physically affected by it.” – Artuad (1958)
I don’t nervous in the same way I usually do when I perform Farewell in various locations. Dustin & have usually worked everyday we can in our temporary space and attempted to make it our home for the short term. When not in the space I am exploring and emmersing myself in the neighborhood around the space and taking in as much of the city as possible. This is my attempt to fall in a love with a city, it’s restaurants, it’s food, it’s drink, it’s people, it’s culture; not with a tourist mentality of leaving soon but with the constant question – Who or what would make me stay?
Each audience we’ve had for Farewell, either in Aarhus, Cork, Montreal, Victoria, Cardiff, or Halifax is a temporary utopia for me, My new friends I am hosting for one hour and hopefully longer; a micro utopia that could be my new future. Curious to each audience members realtion to the city we are in, I dream of what could be while placing myself firmly in the present when looking at each person. We dig into the past to wonder – What would this place be like if everyone who has left stayed?
I often wonder to myself – Why do we go? Why do we stay? I have lived in Waterloo, Vancouver, Toronto and Montreal and still have a constant hunger for a new place that might be my new home. I often feel restless; at parties, waiting in lines, taking a long commute, doing a tedious task but it’s balanced with the growing knowledge this feeling follows me everywhere. The city is not unique, the people are, the history is, those who are new and those who have lived there their entire lives.
All we have is now, the past is the memories and the future is an anxious optimism that things could get better. But how? WIth a better job? A better place to live? WIth pets? With children? Or maybe by apprecating that once in a while we gather to reflect, to drink together, to ask questions, to make a silent promise to be better to ourselves and each other. To look around the room, smile to yourself and know – WE ARE THE COMMUNITY OF THIS MOMENT.